Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Good (attitude) morning
How did I come to this revelation? The twins have been sick for three nights. They wake up every couple hours, having to “go potty”, “need water”, “sing to me” “I tired” “I lost my Lukey!!” “I need medsin!” This is usually accompanied by crying of some sort. Now you take that couple hours and divide it by two boys, it’s more like once an hour. Then throw in a crying little girl with wet sheets at 3:00 in the morning and a leaky sippy cup in the twins’ bed at 4:30 requiring removing and replacing bedding. Then Ryan has this new window fan. It is supposed to maintain temperature so you don’t freeze. It shuts off and turns on automatically. Sounds great. Not so great. Imagine a fan going on/off on/off on/off for a minute every hour or so. Between clothing changes, bedding arrangements, songs, trips to the bathroom, and the intermittent noise of the fan, I found myself almost in tears by 5:00am.
Hence, the revelation. Have you noticed that if you love Christ and read the Bible, those verses come back to you? So, it’s 5:OMGIE in the morning and I am sitting on the boys floor, singing a barely recognizable version of “Jesuslovelittlchillen” when this verse pops into my mind.
“Whatever you do, work at it with your whole heart, as though working for God and not man.” Colossians 3:23. WHAT! Now? I use that verse to inspire students to put forth their best effort, but NOW? I’m so weary, so tired, so half-hearted toward these children…Then it hit me (again). I don’t have to do this alone. I have Christ. I have fruit of the Spirit. I do have patience, and kindness, and gentleness, even at 5 OMGIE (OMYGOODNESSITSEARLY) time. My whole God-renewed heart needs to be working hard at WHATEVER I do, including this 24 hour mom thing. So for all you moms out there, keep working with your whole hearts!
And have a GOOD Morning. (I recommend coffee+scripture)
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Things Kids Say
“This is only writing that I can read. Would you like to hear it?” Sarah.
“Soccer sucks up all my energy, just like a black hole sucks up everything.” Tim
“I like donuts with sprinklers.” –Mark
“It’s bedtime,” says Mama.
“I don’t want to go to bed,” answers Luke, crossing his arms.
“You need to improve your attitude, young man.” Mama frowns.
Luke smiles a huge smiles, spreads his arms and announces, “I love to go to bed!”
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Camping
1. Very cold nights. I woke up hearing a child cry. The sound was OUTSIDE the tent, a little ways away. “Ryan, Lucas is OUTSIDE the tent!”. I grab the flashlight and shine it where Lucas is supposed to be. Just an empty pillow. Ryan is now putting on jeans. “Oh, I found him.” He is off the mattress, on the floor, under a sleeping bag and some dirty clothes. He is sound asleep. However his parents are not.
2. Ryan and Tim toured a ship in the harbor that used to ferry rail cars. This Daddy-son time was fun for both.
3. We went letterboxing and successfully found TWO letterboxes in the Manistee area (Check it out sometime. Use back arrow to return to blog http://www.atlasquest.com/). We took my parents on our second trip, and stopped for ice cream on the way back. Discovered an old friend running the ice cream shop, and I went out to breakfast with just her the next morning! No kids.
4. Kids biked like maniacs. (Do maniacs bike? Where does this expression, “like a maniac” come from? Why do I keep using it?). They loved it and we increased their boundaries as time went by. Tim and Sarah both have training wheels so you could hear them coming as they zoomed by. They both made friends with other campers, and we enjoyed playing at the playground.
5. Ryan and I spontaneously joined our neighbors one evening before sunset when we saw that they were playing Bocce. That was fun, even if the guys won.
6. We had a beach day with my parents and I at the big lake. They all loved it. The water started out very calm but within two hours, a breeze was blowing in and we headed back for the campsite. We still had great fun. Ryan hates the beach so he skipped out and went to a coffeeshop with his computer. Very happy man.
7. During my breakfast with my friend (and no kids), a couple came to our table. It was my inlaws! What a surprise! They were traveling through the area and happened to stop for breakfast in the same restaurant. They called Ryan to verify it was me before they said Hi! They stopped by the campsite to say Hi to all before continuing on their way.
8. Told stories by the campfire and sang silly songs. We ate smores and popcorn popped over the fire! Plus licorice, peanuts, Pringles, and cookies.
9. Marc and Luc cried when we told them we were headed home.
10. A good time had by all, and we are planning on going again next year.
Five things I love about camping
2. Biking to use the "porcelain potties".
3. Hearing the waves of Lake Michigan at night.
4. No TV, no radio, no washing machine, no telephone....
5. Spending time as a family.
Monday, August 11, 2008

Three–the age of independence….Are you familiar with John Ball Park Zoo in Grand Rapids? It’s a wonderful zoo with a wonderful aquarium building. They have a window with a sign that says “octopus”, but usually, you never see him. My son recently discovered how to get the octopus to come out. When the zoo is really busy, there’s a line for the restroom in the hallway of the aquarium. There is also a fire alarm in the hallway of the aquarium. You see where this is going…If your son pulls the fire alarm and your daughter (and many other children) begin crying because it is so loud and scary, and the building clears out and you finally exit the restroom with your children, you will actually see the eye of the octopus and all eight arms moving around right next to the glass as if to say, “What is going on out there?”
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
1. Baby shampoo
2. Freshly made no-bake cookies cooling on wax paper
3. The perfume that came on the honeymoon
4. Candles
5. Fresh summer morning
Thank you, Lord, for the sense of smell. This blog finds me at home once again. My wonderful husband (with outside assistance from a good friend, thank-you!) has provided me with a working computer. (No more blogging at the library). The whole gang is in bed, and I have finished much laundry and many dishes this evening. No idle hands tonight. God Bless you all and good night.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
If you are unable to reach me via my regular email, I apologize. We are still without a home computer. Yes, I am still blogging at the library. Even now, strange sounds are emanating from the children's corner where a rather unique flying puppet show is being performed by two small unruly twins. (I wonder where their mother is. probably blogging at the computers...)
So, without further ado, five things.
Five children's books I adore. (I am at the library, after all.)
1. Diary of a wombat.
2. The library lion by Michelle knudson
3. A rooster named BOB! by Tracey Pearson
4. Mary had a little lamb -HOberman
5. 10 Fat Frogs --read this one really fast, in a dimly lit child's room while you are have asleep...very funny...
Those are my preschool/picture book favorites. My older kids list is much longer but I must go. The kids are holding two kids and a librarian hostage.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Five things
1. Summertime
2. Thunderstorms
3. Gardens
4. Patience
5. Children's books
The virtue of Patience
Patience is a gift. I mean, truly, a gift from God. It's an actual FRUIT of the Spirit. Because, and only because Christ lives in me, I have the fruit of patience growing in my life. (I have recently prayed for some miracle-gro to accomplish this process faster but I have been reassured that God's timing is indeed perfect.)
We are still without our computer, so I ask for your patience. :-) For more on this topic, check out the Word of God, especially Galations 5.
Friday, May 30, 2008
Hero
1. She talks in the same, patient, loving manner as Mr. Rogers (always).
2. She always looks on the bright side or has something "positive" to say.
3. She loves to bake and always has muffins or cookies ready for Baby Bear or Father Bear.
4. She never wears make-up.
5. She is not thin.
6. She smiles alot.
7. She wears frumpy clothes, including aprons. If she has to go out, she puts on a hat.
8. She patiently teaches Little Bear a valuable life lesson in every fifteen minute episode.
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Poetry in Octanes
For instance, while pumping gas, I discovered a deep thought. Yes, the prices are outrageous, but for a few precious moments, I am alone. Seperated from the chldren by the frame of the car, watching the numbers roll, glancing around at the weather, smiling at strangers, feeling the wind, wondering why the octane numbers seem so familiar. Yes, the octane numbers. Those yellow squares with the black numbers. 87 89 93. Did you know I can measure my life in octanes?
I mentioned this to a friend. Puzzled, she asked, "Is that poetry?" I realized I had spoken out of context again. I come by this naturally. My mother does it all the time, leaving you to wonder what she's talking about. We recently watched a World War 2 documentary with her and she suddenly says, "I don't have rain sensing wipers and I thought I would!" We all just stared at her. We had no idea.
Ah, the octanes. 87... That's1987 for me. The year my life began. No, I wasn't born then. I was fifteen. I took driver's training. I had my first real haircut. I got my braces off. I traded in the coke-bottom bottle glasses for contact lenses. It was a Cinderella year. I met my best friend ever, I met the man I would marry. All in one life changing octane..I mean, year.
89...I spent most of 1989 grounded. It was my senior year of high school. I crashed and totalled my car. Ryan and I broke up and got back together at least four times in 1989. His younger brother died of leukemia in January of that year and it wa my cancer-ridden grandparents last journey to Michigan for my graduation. (they died in 90 and 91). In 1989, I turned 18 and I started college in a different state. At last I was an adult, I had arrived.
And 1993. The year of the weddings. While Ryan and I dated on again off again for six years, he proposed in 92 (I did say yes), our friends got engaged and married before us Finally, on OCt. 2, 1993, we stated our vows before God, pledged our lives to one another and to God's glory and on we moved into wedded bliss. I mean, we committed to the hard work, diligent communication, mutual frustrations and joys we were certain the journey of marriage would entail. We'll be married 15 years this October. Wow that was fast.
So there's my life in octanes. Perhaps an eight line form of poetry containing reference to one's life journey would be better. I'll have to work on that one.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Yes, I am typing this at the library while my children are hopefully playing. I can't see them good from here so if I leave suddenly, you'll know why. (Hee, hee). According to our local and extraordinarily talented computer guru, our computer is in need of a mother. You know, everybody needs a mother. Someone to love, comfort, guide...wait a minute! I didn't mean mother, I meant motherboard. Sheesh!
Anyway, here are my five things. (thank you God, for...)
1. Library internet access.
2. Children who come when called. (Hallelujah!)
3. A sleeping child.
4. A good friend to cry with. ( she makes great coffee, too.)
5. Puppets at the library
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Five Things to be Grateful for
2. The sweet smell of chocolate no-bake cookies Grandma makes.
3. All the old photos you can look through with Grandma and find out who people were.
4. The sight of my children hugging Grandma.
5. The taste of hot coffee while sitting at Grandma's table.
(Guess where I went today).
Monday, May 12, 2008
The Perfect Mother's Day
Thursday, May 8, 2008
NIght sounds
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Five things
1. Children who love to play outside.
2. Little boy kisses. (Lucas likes to kiss first one cheek and then the other. He will manually turn my head to do this. It's quite entertaining.)
3. The patience the Holy Spirit provides me.
4. Going to the bank with Tim to look at an actual $100.00 bill to check if Ben Franklin is really on it. ("Mom, why don't we have $100.00 bills?" Hee, hee.)
5. A husband who ministers to others.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Everybody has a name
We walked to the park in Grandville. It’s a little bit of a trek from our home, but Tim and Sarah had bikes and the boys sometimes rode in the burley and sometimes walked. Plus Ryan was meeting us at the park. It was 82 degrees according to the church clock on the corner of Canal Street and 36th. when we strolled by. A beautiful summer day in the midst of April. Lovely. We crossed the street.
We passed the occasional biker, or walker. We all do the polite smile or nod and move on in our lives, don’t we? My three year old gave me pause. We passed a man standing in his yard. He wasn’t doing anything. Just standing there, looking around. Mark stopped and stared at him for a moment. Then he said, “Hi, what’s your name?” with a huge smile. The man smiled, “My name is Harry.” “Hello, Harry. I’m Mark. We are going to the park today.”
Now, it may be that since the van crash, we haven’t really seen too many new people, but I think it was more than that. My heart was warmed by my son’s words and as we walked away from Harry, I realized I would have never known that man’s name if Mark had not asked.
I know it’s typical three year old stuff, but I couldn’t help but think how we don’t want to involve ourselves with ‘strangers.’ We don’t really want to know their names. We just want to move on our way. I pondered this as we walked on. It was a long walk and at last, we were on the trail by the creek. Mark saw the shirtless young man from a distance. He was sitting on the bench, listening to an ipod, with a skateboard near his feet. “Who’s that?” “Oh, it’s no one we know, just some one enjoying the day…” Well, Mark stopped right in front of him, sized him up and smiled. “Hi, what’s your name?” “Jacob, “ replied the man, removing an earplug and smiling a pleasant grin I did not expect, “What’s your name?” “I am Marcus.” “That’s a nice name.” “Yup. I am going to the playground now. Goodbye.” I did the polite smile thing and we walked on.
I think I wasn’t just humoring a small child, I was learning that we need to care about what other people’s names are. We need to have and make room in our neatly ordered lives for new conversations, even new relationships with other people God made. God created Harry and Jacob. Their parents gave them names. They have souls inside. Now, I probably won’t be introducing myself to everyone I see, but I hope to listen to God’s voice, and obey, and remember, everybody has a name.
Friday, April 25, 2008
When Science comes to you (IV)
"Tim, look at this branch I found in the yard. What made these holes?"
"A woodpecker did that, mom!"
"See how it's hollow inside? What was the woodpecker trying to get?"
"Bugs."
"Yes, let's set the branch aside to show Dad tonight."
Later, I heard Tim showing it to Sarah, "Sarah, what made these holes?"
"A woodpecker?"
"Yes. See how it's hollow inside? What was the woodpecker trying to get?"
"Bugs?"
"Yes. Let's set it aside to show Dad later." It made me smile to hear my lesson repeated. I love to hear my kids teaching each other.
From a few sightings last year, we think it was a downy woodpecker, but it was very high up in the tree, and hard to see. If you hear a woodpecker in your trees, it means there's a dead branch. If there's a dead branch in your tree, it's going to come down eventually. :-) For more on Michigan's woodpeckers, look here for a video from Channel 9 and 10 in northern Michigan
http://www.9and10news.com/category/story/?id=131279
Friday, April 18, 2008
Five things
1. Taking a walk with the boys in the burley and Tim and Sarah on bikes. The sun is shining and the grass is actually green.
2. We have lunch outside. Classic PBJ and some cut up oranges. Sarah tells me I am the best mom ever. I remind her that no one is perfect, and we all make mistakes. But Mommy prays to God and God helps mommy be a good mommy. Don’t we have a great God?
3. Washing two pairs of dirty hands coming in from outside play. What tiny little hands that will do so many things in two lifetimes. Oh Lord, bless those little hands.
4. Losing the parking ticket and having the husband find it in two seconds of looking after Tim and I looked for a half-hour with the flashlight and everything. Losing the checkbook (needed to pay the parking ticket). and becoming so upset I could cry. Calling the husband and being shocked by his laughter at the situation. It made me smile too and stopped the tears. Still need to find checkbook before I lose the parking ticket again.
5. Having a friend minister to us with grocery shopping this week. Her two daughters watched the kids while she took me shopping. It was a nice getaway and wonderful to talk to a grownup one on one. Oh, and it was nice to get the shopping done.
Friday, April 4, 2008
Spring is coming
What shall I write, my Lord?
Write about me.
What shall I tell them, Lord?
Tell them how beautiful I am.
But that's been written already, Lord.
In the sky.
In the pine needles under my feet,
In granite and sand,
In all of the sparkle and shine
Of your world.
I know, Child,
I wrote the book.
Tell them to look.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Smash-bam
The young lady in the white car in front of me was a little confused and slowed for the yellow light, coming to a complete stop to wait for it to turn red, then green. I did not see her brakelights in time to come to a stop. I braked and slid smash-bam right into her. We both pulled off the road. Kids were all okay. She was very apologetic, very shaken, but physically okay. It was her first accident and I felt bad for her. I instructed her to use her phone to call 911 and report the accident and the police department would send someone. We went back to our cars and waited. Tim wanted to get out and check out the damage so I let him do that, and Sarah began to cry so I held her on my lap, and we sang and prayed together, “I just want to go home, Mom.”
“I know, sweetie, we have to wait for the police officer.”
Fresh tears, “Is he going to take us to jail?”
“No, not at all.” The boys just wanted out and Lucas kept trying to squirm out of his buckles. I found some toys for them to play with while we waited. I was much more calm, cool, and relaxed than I thought I would be. I have never been in an accident as a mom before and I think it’s a little bit of the mother-bear thing to stay calm for your kids. After I received my traffic ticket and began the drive home, I noticed my hands were a little shaky. By the time we arrived home, my voice was shaky. I got the kids busy with other things and by the time I called Ryan, I was in tears. Thank you God for keeping me calm, cool, and collected when I needed to be.
It's not that I hit someone stopped at a red light. More than just the damage, more than the ticket, more than "yeah, everyone's okay," lies a deeper issue. A vision issue. Should I be driving?
It was a wet, dark, rainy day on a road I don't drive all the time. I was calm during and after the accident. I only got shook up and crying when I reached home. Ryan was grateful no one was hurt, but his biggest concern is the same as mine and the one question he asked is keeping me thinking. He asked, "Do you think I would've had that accident?" Absolutely not. Do I think some other licensed drivers would have hit her. Absolutely yes. So, I am really struggling with my vision issues.
Concerns:
If I crash on 28th. st., what about the drive to the gardens or the zoo or the children’s museum? There is a blinking yellow by the zoo.
Should I limit myself to Jenison? Grocery shopping and the bank. What about the library? No driving on rainy mornings?
What about dental appointments? I’m not super-familiar with the trek to the kids’ dentist office?
These questions fill up my mind. How do I make this judgement call?
Do we look for housing on the bus line? How soon? Can I be within walking distance to the library, park, and grocery?
What about help? Who has the time, patience, and vehicle to haul four kids and their mom to the dentist, or the zoo for the afternoon?
In three years, we can all bike, which is good for my present location, at least part of the year.
In 6 years, Tim can be in charge, and I can go for short treks alone. Will I be driving then? Eleven years until Tim is driving... will I be driving then?
All these questions and no answers. Please pray for Ryan and I when you think of us.